Thirty-six

"I'd planned to go to Vanderbilt on a scholarship and study philosophy," he says. "But I had an epiphany one day. I wanted to do my life for a while, rather than think it."

US Marine Cpl. Ray Person
From the article The Killer Elite

Great quote. Very long time no post huh? I figured since last Friday was my 36th birthday I should take some time to reflect and actually post on my blog. Another year, many changes. The biggest of which is that I will be a father for the first time in a few months. Life changing event? Check. Probably the most excited and scared that I have been in a long time...possibly ever in my life. As everyone keeps reminding me...my life is about to change forever...

It already has a lot over the last year. My interest in all things Integral has waxed and waned and at this point is in my periphery at best. I've taken a break from reading much on philosophy, psychology, Zen and Integral and have shifted to an interest in real estate investment. My goal is financial freedom and security for myself and my family. It should be an interesting ride to freedom.

I don't feel a need to read "spiritual" books and have a hard time even defining what spiritual is or means to me anymore. I am just trying to live each day. Can I just live and be without a label? It is hard in this world to do this.

Reading a book that tells me to be present and just living each day being present are so different. We all need those pointers at some point I suppose so we will eventually see that we don't need them. I don't know where I am with that I just know that I need to live and not read some much about living right now.

My formal meditation practice has been nonexistent for a while now. I fell off the wagon, got back on and then off a few times and have just not practiced daily like I have in the past. I would like to though - just do it as they say.

I'm watching all kinds of house flipping shows...all are pretty bad actually but entertaining and you might learn just a little about actual real estate investing from them. That is in between the staged fights, product plugs and promos, etc. Generation Kill on HBO is a new fav of mine as well...check it out. Lost Season 4 was amazing - still my favorite show by far. Got the new Coldplay album Viva La Vida - I love it. I've been listening to it off and on since it came out. It will be my auditory memory of this summer for sure.

Went to see The Dark Knight at an IMAX theater last Friday - it rocked. Saw the new Indy flick as well and was not impressed.

I am still dealing with my social anxiety although I continue to break through that label as well day by day. Procrastination is still a major enemy...so hard to break such an ingrained habit. You know what you need to do but just don't do it. Silly really but a real pain in the ass.

Well that's about all for now...maybe I will be inspired to contribute more to my blog...maybe not. Hope all is well with everyone out there.

Comments

[Katherine]

dude! long time no see :) happy birthday, happy house flipping. and does this mean we get to call you daddy-o???

[iLife: A Day In The Integral Life]

Hello Katherine! Yes, very long time no see - hope all is well with you.

Yep, in October you can officially call me daddy-o. We are expecting a bouncing baby boy! :)